Spots?

“Pure religion and undefiled before God and the Father is this, To visit the fatherless and widows in their affliction, and to keep himself unspotted from the world.” James 1:27It’s so easy to read a verse and not really take time to think about it and apply it to ourselves, isn’t it? Especially verses such as this…We need to take time and ask ourselves questions. I admit, I don’t do this nearly enough…especially lately…

~What spots do I have?
…that’s a lot, isn’t it?…

The Only One

I want to be the only one.
The only one you have eyes for,
The only one you ever lust after,
The only one you desire,
The only one you’ll see,
The only one you go to when you’re tempted,
The only one you’ll ever give yourself to,
The only one that could ever please you,
The only one you’d want to wait for,
The only one you knew would be worth waiting on,
I want to be special, —
I want to be the only one.

Sometimes I wonder why the heck I even bother blogging anymore. I let my emotions out and it just gets me into trouble. People point fingers at me and get mad instead of trying to understand me or try to encourage me. That’s all I’m looking for. Encouragement. A hug. Someone to talk to about spiritual matters, that actually gives a care…

A Place to Call “Home”…

I used to be such an avid blogger, but I got away from it and deleted all of my blogs except on myspace.

I have recently moved from Missouri where I went to college and have moved back to my “home” state: Ohio, since I couldn’t afford college anymore. But the problem is, I don’t actually consider it “home” anymore. Missouri is my home.

I left all my close Christian friends- and my boyfriend…I really don’t have many friends here, and the friends I have are just people to do things with- Not sit down and talk and have a heart to heart. I really wish God would give me some good Christian friends to help me. I don’t want to be a burden to my boyfriend by leaning on him since he’s the only Christian friend I talk to…and I know I can’t once school starts back up for him. That’s going to be so tough. He’ll have schoolwork and a job, and probably won’t get to talk much to me. It hurts so much. I really don’t want to be here. I know it’s God’s will though, and that things will be ok in the end, but that doesn’t make the road any easier…

I miss Springfield so much…and my boyfriend, Kenny. There was so much going on there. I found a great church that I had just become a member of a couple months before I left, and I was actually getting to serve. I stepped out of my comfort zone and taught the 2-3 year olds for 2 weeks since the regular teachers were on vacation, and that was so new to me, but it was so cool because I was teaching them about God and I knew that that would have an impact on their lives…

Now I’m back in Ohio, and I’m with my old church again. The high school Sunday School teacher wants me to speak on Sunday and also pray about taking over that class! It’s so exciting since my passion is with youth, but I want to make sure that this is God’s will and not mine- I’ve made that mistake so many times and I don’t want to do it again. I pray that God will lead me to the right answer and to what He wants me to share with the youth about my testimony and experiences while at college.